I think I am ok...

For awhile I've been an emotional rollercoaster. It all goes back to the month of February when I was visiting some friends at Salem State College. The visit was great, just the sad part was my friends jokingly kept bringing up how I was a traitor and left them. They'd laugh, I wouldn't. Felt kind of hurtful, even though I knew they were joking around. Kind of started messing with my mind in that I just got put into this sad state of mind that wouldn't leave me until midway through the month of March.
Come this past Wednesday I was visiting friends again Salem and well those emotions swept back into me and it had such a dramatic effect on me this time that when I talked to my dad about it I broke down in front of him. I just felt like I had no idea where I belonged and I wasn't even sure about if I should commit to staying at Castleton due to missing my friends and the theatre program at Salem. Eventually I took advice from my dad, mom, and my friend Maggie and just sat down and made a list of the pros and cons about each place. Eventually I came to the conclusion that my emotional conflict just was me missing my friends and finally coming to the conclusion that, well, you can't always get what you want (oddly enough I was listening to The Rolling Stones when that thought came into mind). I like where I am. I may miss that Salem State Life (reference to song parody done for Brycemas that I saw), but I made my decision and I should be happy where I am. I have opportunity here, minus the opportunity that is one would get from being in Salem and being able to go into Boston and get to do theatre as an internship. Damn I hate not having a car, but that's beside the point. The point is I know where I want to stay and if at all I decide that I just can't stay here no more then well I'll go back to Salem. It's a confusing time, but at least for now I know what I want to do, and that's all that matters.